Saturday, August 30, 2008

Click, Click.

The semester has started with a bang...I have loads of work to do. I have to write quite a few papers for both my Art History and my 3D Design class which I may post here at some point.

Yesterday I bought supplies for my photography class (and this great photo shop in Hampden, Baltimore), I told myself I could only take a photography class if I got a scholarship--and I'm so glad I did, because the materials for taking pictures and developing film are expensive! I was a little worried too becuase I didn't have the right lens for my camera. I have a Nikon F2 (that a man at a camera store called a "dinosaur") and needed a 50mm lens which was easy enough to find online but I need it by Tuesday...Luckly, my local camera store just happened to have one used lens in stock! The Universe wants me to be here, I guess.

Today I am off to the National Gallery of Art to do some homework.
Create a great day!

Friday, August 29, 2008

Something to Think About:

Last night my Yoga Teacher said to me,

"What would it be like to know that you are the ocean and not just the drop?"

Sunday, August 24, 2008

back to school

School starts tomorrow--my days are going to be busy. I'm excited and a bit stressed (already). I may be going lo-fi...meaning a little less blogging, but that's OK. The Guy is away being a business traveler this week so I plan to use my time to get a head in my classes, especially since ACL is right around the corner. Well, here's to new school supplies and fresh clothes: happy back to school!

Saturday, August 23, 2008

still listening...

Last year, I "jumped in" to follow my passion for art and exploring my creativity. This year I am doing so much more intensely by becoming a full time student (and still keeping my "regular job"). This is what I was thinking then, and not too much has changed:

"Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Learning to Listen

So, some days (most days) I feel like I'm too old to not know what I want to be when I grow up. It's so easy to fall into a rhythm (rut?) of life; it's so easy to forget to live with a real, honest, purpose to keep chasing the dreams.

With that said I have finally decided to go back to school (and, I know you're saying, "but Bekki, didn't you get a degree from the University of Missouri?" Yes. But not in something I am very passionate about). I am starting slow, just with an art class. I have had both day and night dreams of pursuing art. I have been teetering on the edge of actually doing it for years. And, as I stated so triumphantly in a previous post I have finally jumped in.

I have found my Personal Legend, my Path. Or, rather my Path found me, I was just to afraid for so long that it wasn't the right one (and who's to say it is or isn't?). This Path has been following me around for years. The Universe knew this was the way I needed to go even when I did not. So, enough with the metaphors of water and byways, I have learned to listen and am following my intuition, my heart and soul. I have learned from paying attention to myself, my body, my habits, and my thoughts, that I need to be in some more creative field. Art (and travel) excite me. Creating something brand new that wasn't in the world a moment before amazes me. So, I learned to follow what not only holds my interest, but what excites me. When I'm not being creative or creating I'm wasting that energy biting my nails or tapping my feet. But, you know what? When I'm working on a project (or traveling) my fingernails tend to grow...my misplaced energy has the proper outlet.

All the wrong turns I have taken are a part of me. They have brought me here. And it is here that it hit me...I can divide my life into 3 very distinct aspects. 1. Creating art. 2. Travel. 3. Everything else. Perhaps it's those first 2 that keep me feeling alive, keep me curious, keep me feeling like a kid on Christmas (and, yes, that is a picture of me). Why can't I feel like that everyday?

So, while I have been trying to be a good little blogger and post every day, I think that things around here are about to get a little less, um "digital." Please be patient if I don't post every-single-day. Know that I am off discovering myself and the world, creating things and teaching people. At the end of most of those days I plan to share my experiences, but as we all know, plans change. These plans may never be lost, they may have only changed."

Friday, August 22, 2008

Already?


Wow. School starts on Monday, I can't believe it. I also can't believe I will be a full time art student, I'm so excited. I feel so much more relieved and confident about the whole thing than I did this time last year.

So, in anticipation of having absolutely no real free time I'm spending this weekend completing any crafty projects I started this summer (perhaps I'll post pictures) as well as finishing my summer books. One book I was reading (and re-reading) this summer was Paulo Coelho's "Warrior of the Light." Last night I read a passage that seems to fit this stage in my life perfectly:

"Because there are no ends, there are only means. Life carries [one] from unknown to unknown. Each moment is filled with this thrilling mystery: [one] does not know where he came from or where he is going.

But he is not here by chance. And he is overjoyed by surprises and excited by landscapes that he had never seen before. He feels afraid, but that is normal...If he things only of the goal, he will not be able to pay attention to the signs along the way. If he concentrates only on one question, he will miss the answers that are there beside him..."
-Paulo Coelho, "The Warrior of the Light"

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

PinkBird's Picture: LA to Austin Roadtrip


A few years ago, some friends and I decided to go on a roadtrip--the problem was that we lived in Hawaii. So, we flew to LA, rented a car and drove to Austin, TX. The trip was awesome, the drive was tiring and exhilarating, the scenery was amazing and the friends were the best. This picture of the mountains was taken during one of the many stops we made on the side of the highway to regroup, stretch or get snacks. I believe it is somewhere on the stretch of highway between southern California and the boarder of Arizona and New Mexico, though I really don't know.

Monday, August 18, 2008

It's Monday:

The end of last week was very interesting, in sync, and relaxing for me. On Thursday my Yoga Instructor had me meditate and discuss the Third Eye, what/who "I Am" as well as the principles of Namaste, "I honor the place in you in which the entire Universe dwells, I honor the place in you which is of Love, of joy, of truth and Peace. When you are in that place in you, and I am in that place in me, we are One." So, this has been my mantra for the last few days (and hopefully longer)... I Am...

Then, Saturday morning I had a fabulous hot stone massage, (I wish I could have one every day). As I laid on the massage table with my eyes closed, watching the colors swirl behind my lids, especially when I was massaged in places where I must hold energy (or stress) like near the back of the Third Eye, where my skull meets my spine. Does this mean I should continue the Third Eye practice my Yoga Instructor began....How synchronized things are...

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Hungry in Chicago...

Last night my fortune cookie fortune read: "Good food brings good health and longevity." So, what better time to post about a food blog? Since I love to support all of the wonderful, smart people I know I thought I'd mention that a friend of mine writes a foodie-ish blog over at the Chicago Examiner....why not check out her blog?

Friday, August 15, 2008

Remembering the Fear:

"Remember one thing....You do not drown simply by plunging into water, you only drown if you stay beneath the surface."
--Paulo Coelho, "The Warrior of The Light"

Well, another crazy busy art semester is about to begin....this time I'll be full time! Yikes! Let's review: a year ago I was so afraid of taking an art class:

"Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Revisiting the Fear....

Today I am releasing The Fear. Again. And, I'm OK with this. It is different this time though, I swear. A few weeks ago I resigned from my 9 to 5 job and have been doing PinkBird Creations full time and wholeheartedly since. It's brilliant. I get up at the same time I used to and instead of "going" to work, I "get" to work. I get to create little works of art that make me happy; things that I then get to share with other people and make them happy.

A friend of mine recently found time to read all of my blog posts in one sitting and found my post about releasing the fear to be very universal (as she works in a field much different than I). Perhaps it's conditioning or upbringing or experiences that sometimes make us to afraid to seek our dreams. Maybe it's those things that keep us from even realizing our dreams have changed since we went to college or never were real to begin with. What if we aren't living our potential because we were taught, somewhere along the way, to believe we couldn't. What if we are only doing what we've been told is the "rational" or "responsible" thing to do. (Although doing something everyday of your life, like work in a career you don't enjoy, doesn't seem very responsible).

The other side of this is the fear of failure or of falling. What if we do follow our hearts and try to live out our dreams and fail? What if I don't make it? What if I fall? The fear of falling is a very big fear; especially after you take a giant leap expecting to land. My friend commented, "I believe that [it] is simply the difference between toeing the water and jumping in. If I would have jumped in a long time ago, I believe my life would be worlds different. " I think the same could be said for most people. Jumping in is very scary. There are so many "what if's" that I wouldn't even know where to begin.

So, today is the day I jump in! And, let me tell you: it was not an easy decision and there were some roadblocks and I definitely cried today when it seemed that it might not work out--but I think it has.

Today is the day that I quiet the voice in the back of my mind that tells me to "play it safe," the voice that says stay in the boat or on the dock. Today I get up off the beach and dive head first into the biggest wave. I will listen to my intuition. So I'll have to be living in the moment. The only voices I will “shhh” are the ones of doubt, insecurity and intimidation. It's so scary that I get goosebumps and I don't want to think about it...Ahhh, goosebumps. How telling are those? My body knows the answer before I realize it. My body is me showing me that I have the energy for undertaking my dreams. Goosebumps are chilling in a way that forces you to move. Rather than running away I will run with my arms open toward what I probably always knew was the right path. These are the omens we deny ourselves everyday. This is my Personal Legend that I have been too afraid to face. Failure be damned, I've known how to swim my whole life. "

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Check.

I am back from my trip to Chicago! While I was there I drove down to the middle of Illinois to the city where my sister lives. She and her boyfriend recently bought a boat so we took it out on the Illinois River. I also got to check a few things off my "before I turn 30" list....I did "something physically adventurous (that I haven't done before)--preferably outdoors." Not only did I get to drive the boat, I also went wake-boarding, which was super fun! Sure, the first time I barely got up and almost immediately face-planted in the water, but I came up laughing uncontrollably. I'm glad I got to try something new, though now I can't wait to do it again and I want my own boat!

I think what I liked best about the whole experience was, like body-boarding or surfing, you really have to be in the moment, you have to function in the present, you can't really be thinking about much else aside from what is going on with your body and the water right now. It was a lovely weekend and a nice lesson in living in the moment.



Thursday, August 07, 2008

I'm at the airport...

I'll be in Chicago for a long weekend. This is one of the best kind of trips: no checked bags and only the shoes on my feet!

Wednesday, August 06, 2008

Etsy Update:

Have you checked out my Etsy Shop lately? I've added some new handmade items as well as supplies!

Etsy
Buy Handmade
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In case you haven't heard, Etsy is an online marketplace for buying (and selling) all sorts of lovely handmade items. There you will find a creative community of indie artists, crafters, and designers selling the best handmade goods, craft supplies and vintage. Signing up for Etsy is free and easy! Just click here.

Monday, August 04, 2008

I Like You for a Friend...

The last time I was visiting my parents in Chicago, I found this picture that I made as a child. I love my use of different media: crayons, markers, pen, stamps...I wonder who this is for or why I made it. It's really happy too, I mean, who wouldn't love a sunny, smiley, party with balloons outside near a (fruit?) tree?

Craftiest Bastard of the Week!

Well, way, way back on June 10th, I (and PinkBird Creations) was the Craftiest Bastard of the Week! This is actually the second time I have been the Washington City Paper's Craftiest Bastard! (I was also CBOTW back in November 2006!) I feel so special and am super excited about it...Thanks everyone! (::Blushing::)

Sunday, August 03, 2008

200th post!

This is my 200th blog spot (or the 100th post of this year so far!) A friend actually recently said to me, "Congratulations on keeping a blog up for so long." And, I guess this is true, especially since before this blog I'd write one (primarily about the PinkBird Shop) on MySpace. So, thank you so much for reading and keeping me going! One of these days I plan to open the "comments" section. (I'm concerned about spam). Well, HOORAY for 200 blog posts (in just over a year or so)! Thanks again, You are Stardust.

Saturday, August 02, 2008

PinkBird's Picture: Haleakala Maui

There is a stretch of road (that may actually be closed due to earthquake damage) just on the other side of Haleakala in Maui (past Oheo Gulch) that the rental car companies don't want you to drive on--and with good reason, it's bumpy, eroded, narrow, and steep...but this is the side of Maui a lot of tourists don't get to see. This is a beautiful view of Haleakala, in its empty, majestic simplicity. Haleakala may actually be one of my favorite places on earth, so to me there is something quite peaceful and moving about this picture.

Friday, August 01, 2008

A Gift...

Last night my yoga instructor guided me through a Metta ("loving kindness and compassion") meditation. From my heart to your heart...From the heart of the universe. You have arrived.

"May I be Happy.
May I be at Peace.
May I be Free
from Suffering."

"May You be Happy.
May You be at Peace.
May You be Free
from Suffering."


*photo taken by me, of a waterfall on the island of Maui.